Never Asked For Heaven

by Bent Life

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1.	Introduction 00:46
2.	Lock 01:48	lyrics
One too many times You had to prove me right Once golden, unlocked Now hanging like an afterthought I'm broken open You swore I wanted this, wanted that You turned your back I wanted you, but not to fix me Not to make me whole Not to save me Turn the key again I don't need ammunition Insulting injury Familiar feelings grabbed by the neck and put to sleep I never asked for heaven Don't put that on me No prying, or begging I don't care for useless reasoning Cause you can't fix me You can't make me whole You can't save me Turn the key I know some things you can't forget Shut like a Lock
3.	Thanks For Nothing 02:32	lyrics
Scream in ignorance A parade of arrogance I can't wait to watch you fall Your world's like steel on a pillar of salt No king Your blind determination's wasted Thanks for nothing Disease Won't let you take your life out on me Sharp like a knife in the back The taste of spite I gotta spit it out No king Your blind determination's wasted Thanks for nothing I'm far beyond controlling (So far beyond control) Your values are left to rot (Torn but still unmoving) Keep running, punk
4.	Hands Of Lead 02:47	lyrics
It's not enough 'til the last Broken bone keeps me fixed to the ground at the end And time can try But it can't strip me Of hands of lead with iron skin Five-sided like a fist I know the wall's approaching I'm breaking through As If I knew another way Buried grinning While you dust the dirt off Where my name's engraved How far you'll go Constantly put to the test Every warning was ignored like the rest Welcome to a new level of force Unparalleled until now Faced with opposition Unknowing of their mistake I am destruction, incarnate, enraged; The wrecking ball lept out the cage I'm smashing through Like a fist I'm burning out, not fading
5.	Stab Me 01:54	lyrics
I've been ready to bend until I break Who's the wolf at the other end When I feel like prey? Cut but I won't bleed Refuse a life on my knees I'm still ready, chewing broken teeth Truth you don't want to know A killing joke: Sincerity is cheap Cut but I won't bleed Refuse a life down on my knees I've seen so many fools Crushed beneath the boot Scratching and clawing my nails in the dirt Can't see the light, everything hurts Kicked in the teeth, bleeding beneath Levels of suffering beyond belief You put me down in the ditch Left me to die, son of a bitch Pull myself up for the fight One of us is gonna die tonight
6.	Cheat Death 04:03	lyrics
I've been stabbing at the dark Some way of praying for an ending Bruised and beaten Hardened breathing I've been fighting a war that I can't win A room full of no one Myself against myself And I never meant to drag you down Because if you wanna know the truth It's that I'd break this fucking world in two for you if that's what I had to do I need your hand to pull me back from that dead-end sting of doubt Like I'm pissing on a burning building Like I'm burning just to burn out Now I'm braking harder Those spinning feelings are slowing so I can't lose grip The sheer fact of living's like I'm cheating death And I've been trying But understanding mercy While I'm hanging from a rope Has me feeling like humanity is one sick joke And I can't stop laughing I've been dying to live Playing absolutes in a time where faith's misused Burdened by my own morality You know I love to lose Abandon old traditions Break the unwillingness to change There are no second chances The clock ticks until it breaks I'm giving everything I have to give Fighting a war I can't win Cheat Death
7.	Kick 02:01	lyrics
Can't walk away Or shake the truth Of who I've hurt- the things I abuse I lied to you Yeah, well I've been lying to myself for so long too If it's for the worse, it's so hard to say Does anybody really ever change? But I'm wanting I'm needing To feel control Close seems so far away
8.	Painless 03:05	lyrics
Accept/Regret, either way you lose Run-down and torn in two Right or wrong, you're thrown into the fire It's painless hoping Painless fearing Painless trying Painless losing Painless burning knowing I've been stronger I've been awake for days A lifetime of past mistakes Wrung out, unwound Nothing new Regaining Still it's painless wishing Painless breaking Painless learning Painless growing Painless rising Suffer till I come back I am stronger, I feel it I did everything that I could do A cell within myself I couldn't escape A life without misfortune There's no such thing And there are no tears no for the dead Unburdened by the guilt of living I am stronger Unbroken
9.	War 02:57	lyrics
Carved from stone But cracked in time I never said I cared Never said goodbye It's been war losing you Knowing that I could've made things right War, learning who I am Without you in my life You were carved from stone But fell so low Sometimes the weight of the world becomes too heavy to hold It's been war knowing you were hurting While I was so far from home War, trying to replace what's irreplaceable I can't keep repeating every apology But you were a flame above a world drenched in gasoline And this feels so long overdue But I'll light the match I'll burn it down for you
10.	Permanence 02:36	lyrics
You can't stop this It will only stop you I can't follow Taking and taking And dying without living Fuck your selfish intentions I'll dig my fingers into uncertainty You can't stop this